August 11, 2009
Oh. Yesterday was the nation’s birthday. AND…MY dearest brother’s 19th birthday too! i was ashamed i forgotten about it on the day itself until today when i was staring into space during work at 6am in the morning. *hums bday song* Oh wells, i cant wish him too. he is out sailing somewhere in the ocean. Today is also that person’s birthday. and as much as i want to forget about it, i actually managed to remember it, and on that day itself surprisingly. but again, it’s insignificant and meaningless to remember it too. I mean, I dont have to do anything. so yup. These days, I’ve kind of stopped thinking.. i’ll just get over it someday. It’s always a cycle of shock, disbelief, anger, disappointment, ignorance.  Secretly, i hope it will turn into a joke soon. It’s the easiest way to make the cycle stop. Or changing my surname back to Goh. Now, wheres my old birthcert? 

Oh. Yesterday was the nation’s birthday.

AND…MY dearest brother’s 19th birthday too!

i was ashamed i forgotten about it on the day itself until today when i was staring into space during work at 6am in the morning. *hums bday song* Oh wells, i cant wish him too. he is out sailing somewhere in the ocean.

Today is also that person’s birthday. and as much as i want to forget about it, i actually managed to remember it, and on that day itself surprisingly. but again, it’s insignificant and meaningless to remember it too. I mean, I dont have to do anything. so yup.

These days, I’ve kind of stopped thinking.. i’ll just get over it someday.

It’s always a cycle of shock, disbelief, anger, disappointment, ignorance. 

Secretly, i hope it will turn into a joke soon. It’s the easiest way to make the cycle stop. Or changing my surname back to Goh. Now, wheres my old birthcert? 

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